đA fall afternoon đ This will be the 3rd year we havenât scheduled family photos. I just canât do it. And I, a family photographer, BELIEVE in family photos. But for right now, for this family, itâs just too much. Thereâs all the normal stuff⌠the coordinating outfits, getting everyone ready, finding & scheduling a photographer I like, the travel & expense. The hyping the kids up for it. The hyping me up for it, âI can do this! These are the only pictures Iâm actually in!!!â But then, thereâs the extra. With our life thereâs always so much extra. In any given photo circus everyone ends up overstimulated and crazy by the end. Weâve alllllll been there. But you throw a neurodivergent in the mixâa kid who is unable to process the extra stimulationâtruly unable to roll with it; unable to deal with a stranger yelling their name (heck, wonât always look when I say her name) and couldnât care less about treats or toys or any bribe you got because the only language we speak is âGET ME OUTTA HERE AND BACK TO MY SAFE ROOM, PEOPLE!!!!â
Sigh. Itâs rough.
Iâve taken a lot of pictures of kids with special needs and hereâs what I know: you canât rush it. You canât be loud or crazy. You canât always act silly or make weird noises. You can never ever expect or demand a smile. We ainât gonna mini session our way outta this first meet ân greet, honey.
There has to be trust. And someone who REALLY knows what theyâre doing. And Iâm not just talking about the camera. And Iâm sure as heck not talking about posing. My gosh NEVER POSE.
I once had a professional photographer try to take pictures of Lydia and I had the misfortune of being there. They were trying to whip a whole bunch of kiddos through in five minutes: âYou smile, now you smile, now you smile,â click click click. We burned the place down. My heart burned with it. Because my girl, she needs a little more than five minutes to give you her real self. To give you anything, actually. Total disaster. Whatcha gonna do?
This is all to say⌠I canât do it. The screams & sobs from 3 yrs ago are still echoing in my brain. So this is the stuff you get, peeps. Please remember I was there, too.