Every year around this time I start thinking about goals. It’s part of my intentional review of the year and evaluation of “next steps” needed & desired. This year’s themes were hope & balance. Going into the year I was anticipating a lot more yoga/restoration vibes, but as my journey unfolded, it turned out that my personal quest for balance involved a lot more analysis and elimination of unhealthy or distracting elements than I could have ever imagined. It was a lot more “boot camp” than the “spa day” I had envisioned 😂 The migraine crisis played a big role in that, but it’s gone a lot deeper, and we’ve left no stone untouched. In fact I feel as if I’ve had the opportunity to pick up every weight & measure in my life, examine it, heft it in my heart & hands and evaluate: does this serve me? Does this contribute to my wellbeing? Does this make sense? Many results have been surprising, bringing about changes I never saw coming. And I would say it’s still an ongoing process—figuring out how much this scale can hold and what the optimal operating balance is. I don’t think my scale ever holds still in perfect equilibrium for long, either… not in this life. Interesting how that word of intention “balance” took on such a life-changing dynamic in 2022. It’s good to reflect. As crazy and hard as this year has been, I think ultimately the great unloading & restructuring, & the critical thinking as well, will serve as a catalyst for good new growth, exhausting as the process has been. Gardening is never easy, but we live for the promised flowers.
