Isn’t she beautiful?!! I know that to some, this might just be someone else’s baby; but that’s a piece of my heart looking back at me right there. And she is special.
They called to schedule her surgery, today. And I said “Yes.” Yes, we will sign up for this. Yes, you can have that date during the second week of August. Yes, that’s when I will hand her over, you can take her behind closed doors, and I will pray the most earnest prayers I’ve ever prayed in my life. Motherhood seems a little too real and a little too heavy, today. A little too much like it’s hard to breathe. Still, I know I don’t carry the burden alone. There are many who love us, and I become increasingly aware of what it means to hand my whole heart over to God and trust that He can and will do what is best for His children (and mine). It’s just so hard to let go.